"...Forget about the sharks and swim..."

12:55 am - I'm so scared.

42 days until I graduate college.

IF

I pass my classes.

Current Mood: worried

03:06 pm - Some K quotes

4-6-9
"I pamper this pet rock like none other."
-talking about her new toy our mom got her

................

3-30-9

(K has to play the recorder for music class at school. They've been learning the song Hot Cross Buns, and K's been practicing it at home. She was tested to see how well she knew it today in school)

Mom: K is now a Hot Cross Buns professional. She passed the test.

 2-19-9

 "I look cute from the shins up." K said, because she loved her outfit but hated the shoes our mom was making her wear

 12-?-8

 "You know, this is live. Everybody's playing it, even Asian people." K said, trying to explain how worldwide the ClubPenguin computer game she was playing online really is.

 ................

 2-27-8

 "He has 'sposable thumbs or something I guess." K said, after her and I had a conversation about that chimp that attacked that woman

 ................

 3-?-9

 "Pizza has a lot of trans fat. It's not healthy." K said to me after she complained of being hungry and I told her to grab a slice of the pizza my mom had ordered earlier for dinner

Current Mood: amused

12:44 pm - K's 'No On 102' plea

My grandma came into the house today and was showing me a 'Yes on Prop 102' flier that was on our doorknob, and K saw it, and asked me what it meant. I explained to her what Prop 102 is, and she immediately said she wanted to write a letter.

I don't like when kids are involved in politics, but K really wanted to write a letter, so, I couldn't really stop her.


So anyways, here's what she wrote:

VOTE
NO
TO
102

Current Mood: Proud of K

03:42 am - Can't wait

The morning I left LA, Em told me she can't wait until she's back in Dallas this fall/winter so that her and I can "start having fun again like before."

Yay

:)

Current Mood: Bored

03:00 pm - Not sure of exact date/time

In a text to Jana while I was in LA, I said:

I feel so unbelievably lucky when I'm around her. She's such a cool, fun, funny, charismatic, beautiful, smart, interesting woman. I keep asking myself what on earth I ever must've done right to have the pleasure of knowing her, and what on earth could possibly make her want to spend time with ME. Blows my mind.

Current Mood: Happy, shocked

11:52 am - For now there's nothing to talk about.

Current Mood: Ok/sleepy

11:32 am - I miss my baby...

K asked my mom if she got her “eculus stimulus check” yet. HAHA. We were all cracking up.

I’m so thankful my baby is healthy and perfect and alive.

Unfortunately,

the Lydon’s got some more bad news today about their 9 year-old, Rehanna. Apparently her muscular cancer (which had only been thought to be in her spine) has now spread to her bone marrow, and she has a mass in her colon. The bone marrow cancer is untreatable. We are all sick over it. It’s horrible and disgusting. Her parents are just beside themselves. It’s horrifying. I’d want to die if it was my own baby It's sick enough when it's someone else's.

Current Mood: Sad/nauseated/pensive/angry

11:16 pm - LiFe

 On May 30th, 2008 at 12:31am (east coast time) or 9:31pm (west coast time), K texted me this from my mom's phone:

it ken How are you doing i miss you lots about when are you gonna come and visit

I love that kid so much.
She lightens up my minute, day, week, month, year, LIFE.

Current Mood: loved

11:29 am - Life sucks sometimes...a lot of the time...

My uncle's very best friends' oldest daughter, Rheanna, is 8 yrs-old. They just found out that she has cancer and has 2 years max to live. I want to vomit. Thats somebody's Kennedy. So so horrible. Ugh.

Current Mood: Sad, nauseous, disgusted.

08:00 am - O goody

Libra, May 22:
Don't worry if you start off this day feeling a bit depressed -- it won't last long.
by astrology.com
 

Current Mood: blank

04:55 pm - Totally made my day/month/year/...life...

 K made me a mother's day card.
It reads as follows: 

Dear Megan,
you are the best person ever. You are number one.
I loved you since I met you and the reason I am
writing you this letter for mother's day is you are
like my mom! I LOVE U!

"I knew I loved you before I met you."

(She added the quote at the end because she knows it's part of "her" song... It was the song I heard when we were on the way to the hospital to have her. And the lyrics fit perfectly. I play it for her sometimes. It's the Savage Garden song.)

Anyways,
she's the best.

Current Mood: loved

05:08 pm - Lock & Key

 K found a Masterlock
when we walked through the desert two days ago.
She was very excited
but bummed when she realized it was locked.

K cracked its code,
and ran through the house cheering.
I'm not sure I've ever seen her so excited.
It was adorable.

Now she locks up her backpack.

Current Mood: Madly in love w/ K

04:45 pm - Why did I sleep in her bed with her...?

Well,
because holding her hand in mine,
hearing her breath steady as she fell asleep,
& having her right beside me

just felt Right.



*shrugs*

Current Mood: I'm alright. Sleepy tho.

03:46 pm - My personality paints this picture...

Click here to create your own painting.

Current Mood: Indifferent, sleepy, restless

04:58 am - Sometimes, being the key word here...

“People dream for miracles every day...and sometimes they come true.”

I just heard that on some movie they have on.

Current Mood: Tired, sobering up a bit, etc.

03:33 pm - Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium

"It is what it is, nothing more."

Eric Applebaum: My hat's stuck.
Molly Mahoney: Ha... looks like you're gonna need a ladder.
Eric Applebaum: Naah. I just need to jump higher.
Molly Mahoney: Eric... that's seven feet, at least.
Eric Applebaum: Seven feet? Really?
Molly Mahoney: At least.
Eric Applebaum: You think I should get a running start?

"It's a perfect fact."

"Your life is an occasion, rise to it."

Henry Weston: Anything can happen, sir.
Mr. Edward Magorium: Anything can happen. How absolutely true.

"All stories, even the ones we love, must eventually come to an end and when they do, it's only an opportunity for another story to begin."

"Unlikely adventures require unlikely tools."

Molly Mahoney: I'm stuck!
Mr. Edward Magorium: Oh, to my floor?
Molly Mahoney: No, sir.
Mr. Edward Magorium: Then what?
Molly Mahoney: Like a person.

Current Mood: Hmmm

09:14 pm - Hmmmmmmmmmm

I see a baby dyke...teehee

Current Mood: Curious!

12:53 am - Something needs to change

Current Mood: Sad, but energized for change

08:16 pm - Finally

So today wasn't a complete waste...

I jazzed up my resume,
got it all updated & everything,
& then
I applied to FIVE jobs today.
They were all either writing & tutoring.
I'm excited!

My resume looked pretty awesome,
(if I do say so myself.)


My fingers are crossed.



:)

Current Mood: Proud, yay!

10:17 pm

( Life is more than who we are. )

Current Mood: Weird

03:01 pm - A Zen Story

There was a boy who lived in a village.
On his birthday, he was given a horse.
The villagers rejoiced, 'Oh good! He got a horse!'
And the Zen Master said, 'We'll see.'
Not long after the boy falls from the horse and breaks his leg.
The villagers say 'How terrible, he broke his leg.'
But the Zen Master said, 'We'll see.'
Then a war breaks out
and because the boy was injured he can't go fight in the war.
The villagers said, 'Oh good, he is safe from the war."
And the Zen Master said, 'We'll see.'"



Hmmmmmmmmmmm

Current Mood: I'm alright

01:01 am - The love gets pushed away.

So I got stupid tonight.
Stupid drunk, that is.
Still am.

But I met a girl.
Two girls actually.
I gotta start going to these gay things
more often.
I met a new best friend too.
Justin.
He's my male counterpart.
Wow. Such a cutie
and what a sweet guy.
We talked ALL night
and sat beside each other
and drank wine.

And I totally asked a new girl out.
Her name is also Megan.
She's a PhD student
and she is Shane-ish
and totally adorable.
I like her voice.
We've texted since I left.
I'll play it cool tho.

I've thought about Emily all night.
I texted her about the flights
and how I want to make the reservations
from now on
and I didn't hear back from her.
It's like,
I am in love w/ her,
but I am so frustrated and annoyed w/ her right now
that the love gets pushed away.
And I hate for that to happen,
but it is.
She has a lot to do to make me feel better
if she wants me to come there next weekend.
And I sort of want to........
.......because, like an ass, I miss her.....
...even tho she treats me like shit.
WHY IS THAT???


I'll have to write more about tonight
tomorrow
because I drank too much tonight
and because I feel sick right now.

Gnite

Current Mood: Drunk-ish, exhausted, ok, etc.

09:33 pm - Life, on shuffle.

I have been  in the computer lab for a while now.
FINALLY I finished my assignments.
I did all three labs (including two charts)
and I wrote a stupid couplet poem.
These poetry classes are ridiculously easy.
There's a reason I'm not opting to take the fiction writing classes, lol.

Guess who ending up being able to help me with my Excel assignment?
DAVE.
Wow huh.
He's not as dumb as he looks.
Ha.

Not a single goddamn word from You-Know-Who.
Can you believe the balls on her?
Adding Jamie to the list and everything last week,
after SHE ASKED ME TO.
Geezus.
I'm the idiot here.
I give and give and give,
'til there's nothing left but anger from being used.
Maybe that's my lesson in this...
hmmm...

I had ice cream earlier.
Coldstone.

I wanna go home and watch my movie.
I think I'll walk it 
and listen to my iPod
on shuffle.

 

Current Mood: Better, but still annoyed.

06:50 pm - Dumb Dumb Dumb

Ok I'm pretty annoyed.
For multiple reasons actually,
but the most important being
the fact that ever since I had to erase my computer
and reload everything,
I don't have Microsoft Office,
and therefore do not have Excel,
and therefore am having a helluva time doing my assignment.
So now I have to go back on campus
to the lab
and work on it there.
So dumb.


Oh,
and I hate girls.

Officially this time.

I'm gonna finish my hummus,
call Kelly on my way to the lab,
seethe a bit,
attempt to do my assignment before it's due at midnight,
go home,
call Dell to renew my warranty,
and finish watching 'Lost In Translation.'


*sighs*

Current Mood: Pissy, annoyed, tired, etc.

04:35 pm - hOOkAh!

Smoking hookah as I write this.
I needed it.
It relaxes me,
and it's been forever since I've had it.
Reminds me of some of my favorite pasttimes.

I finally got my textbooks.
I have three out of four now.
The other one I had to special order.
It should be in by next week.
Finally,
all I have left to do today
is homework.
Lots of it too.

Yaser was the one who taught me
the little tricks of the trade...
...I can break coals and stock it
as well as any of the employees! Ha.
I miss that guy.

The smoke is filling my lungs
and clouding my head.
I'm loving it.
I've missed it.

I should go do homework now.
Ciao

Current Mood: Smoking hookah. I'm ok for now